Sunday, January 30, 2011

somethings no-one should read

This is not a blog which I'd expect you to read if your name does not have the initials AP or AT.
And if your name does have these initials and you still don't know if it refers to you or not, you'd be better off skipping this particular post and discarding the memory that you ever came across this article ever.

But if you are reading this line, then I guess you are the one I am talking about, since, I'm pretty sure, I'll never read this after I'm done putting my thoughts here for you to read.

Personally, in my life, I'd gladly choose a happy moment, even with the certainty of a sad moment in the future, to a dull moment with no assurance that a sad moment will not wait for me in the coming days. I'd rather have ups and downs in my life than a simple straight path with no undulations, for the high-points and the low-points leave behind powerful memories that make up the essence of life.

When I am 80 years old, I'd love to think back and remember my life-road's highs and lows, my successes and my mistakes, rather than look at an empty and drab life-road where I managed to circumnavigate the potholes, by taking the safe routes and the middle paths. I'd love to be able to laugh at my mistakes and see a tear or two trickle down at the thought of the happiness bygone.
I'd like to laugh at the stupid castles I had built in the air, and cry joyfully at all the things I'd managed to do right.

I'd love to be able to tell a lot of tales to my grand-kids, if I have them - tell them of the days when I was carefree, risk-loving and accident prone. I'd love to be able to fall back into a reverie of thoughts, along paths that I'd never explored before, and which only then the "old" wisdom would show me. I'd like to be able to fall into my final eternal sleep with enough experiences to relive for an entire eternity, until I'm finally let free, to roam wherever I may forever and ever more..